The Big Now is Boundless Full Consciousness of NOW already open and present in this moment. It is the present existence itself, yet it is overlooked because the attention and focus are placed on external or internal objects, and it is being veiled by past conditioning. When you start to relax into what is already here right Now fully and totally, you become more familiar with your inherent Boundlessness, which is Freedom, Happiness, and Bliss.
WHAT IS THE NOW?
Every single living being has a point of reference, an individual perception. There are billions of people on this earth, an uncountable number of animals, insects, birds, and mammals on this earth. So, let’s imagine that the whole universe is like a big ball, and there is an uncountable amount of souls in this big ball of the universe, having their own unique perception, their own unique view. Some of them are looking from this point, some of them are looking from that point, and millions and billions and trillions and quadrillions of souls are all having different points of view, within the same one universe, within the same one ball. So, what is the Now? What is Consciousness, the Self, God? Is it individual? Apparently, no. Is it somebody up there looking down on everybody?
No, because that would be just another point of view looking down at everybody. You can look from beneath to everybody, you can look from above to everybody, and it’s still a point of view. Therefore, consciousness is permeating the whole universe and all individual points of view. Consciousness is looking through the whole universe, and through every single point of view, even from your cat’s eyes, even from the mosquito senses, even though the sun itself. From every point of view, Consciousness is aware. It’s looking. You can imagine how the cat sees the world, but you can’t really look through the cat’s experience if you are not the cat itself.
Therefore, the only way back to Consciousness is to realize that everything that appears is within your awareness. All of this is inside you, but that’s not for your mind to understand. All of this experience, no matter how many millions of kinds of possible variations of experiences is all happening inside you. And who is this you? Of course, it’s not your two eyes. When you close your eyes, you’re still aware. So, this experience, no matter what form it takes, 3d, 4d, 5d, 12d, appears inside you. By saying inside you, I don’t mean inside your skin, or inside your head, or even inside your heart, because within the awareness of this experience, everything is included, even this furniture, computer, these walls, this building, it’s all included within your awareness. It’s not in your chakras, your head, or heart, or third eye, or anywhere else. It’s all in your awareness. All of it. Every single thing. Even all the things you don’t like, even all the fears and everything else, because these are experiences.
Good experiences appear in your awareness, and bad experiences appear in your awareness, too. Therefore freedom, or liberation, does not come from changing bad experiences into good experiences. It does not come from trying to control and manipulate the environment, the outer environment, or the inner environment. Your inner environment is your thoughts, emotions, feelings, energies, sensations, perceptions, and senses. Liberation is realizing where everything is happening, which is in your awareness. There is this apparent journey back to awareness because your awareness is very quickly taken over by the mind. One moment you’re aware, and the next moment, you’re following your thoughts, what pops into your head.
One moment you’re in awareness, and the next moment you’re in an amazing feeling inside your heart, and you lose awareness. You just flow into the heart, into this loving sense that is so beautiful that you just want to stay there. And you become energy, or part of it.
So, there’s an apparent journey back to awareness, back to Consciousness. When awareness becomes boundless, it equals Consciousness. When awareness becomes unlimited, absolute, and boundless, it equals Consciousness. It equals the Self, or God, or any other name that you want to give it. So, instead of naming things, we should realize that we are aware, that everyone is aware right now. The distraction of your awareness that grabs your focus, and further entertains your mind, are just distractions, entanglements, attachments, and desires. That is called bondage, entanglement, or conditioning. Because, if your focus is entangled with objects, with spaces, with emotions, or thoughts, or energies, it’s conditioned focus. It’s not free. It is subject to the conditions of these thoughts, emotions, energies,
or spaces. Even beautiful emotions, like love, are conditioned unless this love is absolutely boundless, and then it’s the freedom love.
There is nothing wrong with your focus, as long as it’s not entangled with what is within your focus. Your focus and attention are not the problems, it’s the entanglement that’s the problem. Entanglement means to merge with the object, or energy, or thoughts, or emotions. Entanglement means mixture. It’s mixed up with what your focus and attention perceive. When it’s mixed up with that which it perceives, it’s conditioned, narrow, limited, and closed, to a certain extent.
The real Now is everything, unentangled, unconditioned, boundless, open, aware. That is Consciousness itself. It is, we may say, very bright or radiant, but not to be focused on, not to be entangled with, not to be limited by. Everything is inside you, and this “you” is awareness itself, which is aware of this experience. You need to relax your focus; you need to relax entanglement with your experience. You can soften your attention. The first and most important step is to slow down because if you’re fast, it’s much more difficult to disentangle from experience.
So slow down your experience. Slow down your inner experience, thoughts, emotions, and energies. You can recognize there is a certain crudity, a certain grip, a certain stickiness and gripping, or grasping onto something, a particular feeling, a particular way, a particular sense. Grasping of particularity. Here is a shortcut – if you focus on nothing, and nowhere, that immediately releases the grip. When you focus on nothing and nowhere your grip releases. And become familiar with this ungraspable space, openness, having no position, having no center, no point of perception. Just become familiar at least for a bit. When you focus on nothing and nowhere, it’s open. One second, open, and then you say, oh, I feel a bit safer in a little bit smaller space. So, you might go back to your cozy environment, which is familiar. That’s okay, it’s how it usually goes, that’s fine. But when you build up a bit more courage, you can try again to focus on nothing and nowhere, and in one second, you’re open, that’s it. And what is it, this openness? It is everything, absolutely everything. You’re not even focusing on it, it already is. If you focus on everything, you have a limited view. Relax, release, and let go. Better to focus on nothing, than trying to focus on everything.
So, when you focus on nothing and nowhere it seems that it is emptiness, space, openness. It appears to be so at first because you were filled up with all kinds of content, and now you are releasing the content. But actually, that nothing and nowhere when you don’t focus, it’s a very big awareness, brightness. I call it light lightless brightness. It’s even beyond the light and the dark, beyond duality, it’s lightless brightness. And that is the Source. And that is so intensely bright and light and here that it’s like 1000 suns that you will discover as you stay more and more in this awareness, nowhere in it, nothing. It only appears at first to be empty, empty of content, but later on, you discover more and more that it’s the source of everything. It’s a place from where everything came into creation, all degrees of manifesta -
tions, densities, dimensions. Even various spaces have certain sizes within the boundless consciousness.
So, the way is to withdraw your attention completely away and allow it to relax, drop onto nothing, and nowhere. That is the absolute fastest way to come back to consciousness, to withdraw from all content, from all experiences. That is the meaning of renunciation, it’s not to become a monk or a priest or a nun. That would be an external experience. The real renunciation is to renounce from all content, external and internal. It’s to renounce from the universal experiences. That is the real meaning of renunciation. And then people invented being monks, and priests, and nuns. That is symbolic. Renunciation to withdraw from content, to recognize that all content is within your awareness, already, now, here, and that is so. Renouncing from the content now to become the absolute Now.
The best form of devotion is devotion to your awareness. It is to become so devoted to your boundless awareness that you surrender yourself and your content absolutely to your own boundless awareness. That is the most divine love. And that is what certain saints meant when they said “I Am the Way”. They meant that this awareness is the way, this boundlessness is the way. And then they said, “you can surrender to me”, and by that, they meant to be boundless awareness, right here, right now. Of course, it is not the appearing form of Jesus, Buddha, Ramana, or anyone else. It’s not to the form. It is to this boundlessness which is here, now, and it’s accessible to all of you. So, you can renounce and devote to that absolutely. It requires no faith. You don’t need to believe in anything. It requires even no trust,
because awareness is already here. You can only trust in objects, forms, energies, appearances, feelings. These are intermediary steps of renunciation. And every moment you can check yourself, and see that there is a certain entanglement with what is within your experience. But luckily there is awareness, even of that entanglement, or grasping, or gripping, and that awareness itself is the freedom.
Knowing this, you know the highest truth because everything else is experiential, it’s experience, in various forms and diversities. And this truth is so simple, but this entanglement is quite difficult, because there is a big habit built up of many decades of living in form, and there is even a certain entanglement with an even bigger past, with deeper spaces, extensions of energies into the past. Even past lives, extension into your soul. The entanglement goes all across the universe because the whole universe is experiential. You have to become free from the universe because the universe is within your awareness. Even when you go to heaven, you still need to be free from heaven, because heaven is a nice environment. But the real heaven is not even within, it is the awareness of the heaven which is the real absolute heaven, freedom, happiness, and bliss. If you can choose where you would like to go, make a wise choice to go to your awareness itself, and be there, stay there, and disentangle anything and everything which distracts you from residing fully, absolutely in the boundless awareness itself which is Consciousness, God, Self. It’s not that complicated. Everyone can do it with good practice, with a little bit of help, with some Grace, all of you can do that. That’ what we’re here for.
Developing neutrality is another way, neutrality to your experience because it’s all happening as it is right now. It is the “isness” of the happening of Now. Even if it’s unwanted isness, it is still happening as it is. The freedom is not to change that, the freedom is to transcend that, to see what is happening. All is happening in awareness itself. And bit by bit you become free. The degree of your realization is the degree of letting go of holding on to experience. You are a lot closer to your awareness than you can see, or feel, or perceive, or know. You’re much closer than that. You’re closer than seeing, feeling, knowing, perceiving. You are closer than the experience itself. It’s all happening inside awareness. And wherever you are now in this recognition, it’s okay. It’s good as it is right now.
You don’t need to push yourself. Relax from pushing, as that will give you more freedom. If something is resistant, relax the resistance, and you will be much closer. If you are within the enjoyment of the current energies, experiences, well, relax even from that. Recognize that awareness is aware of them, too. Gently, of course, you can allow the nice experience to continue, but be beyond experience. Allow it, but be beyond it.
The best tool is to know the truth of awareness, that it’s right here, and then it’s only a matter of time. It’s only a matter of time, because you know that, and you can always check it. You will see that whatever happens, you are aware of that right here. Thus, it’s only a matter of time until all these attachments will be exhausted, until all the forms of the food of the mind will be starved, until all the ways that things get sticky will become disentangled. It’s just a matter of time.
You are already enlightened, awareness is just a matter of time until you will come out of your experiences and be free again. As time is relative, it may take a couple of months, or a couple of years, or a couple of lifetimes. That is the degree of your laziness, of your distractions, of your entanglement with your experiences, attachments, and desires, but it’s all subject to time. Awareness is not subject to time, but the experience is subject to time. Time is also perceived in awareness, oh, today’s so slow, and tomorrow, exciting, and the day goes so fast. And you say, oh, where did the time go? So, even the time itself is within awareness. You can see how time flows. You can see how your life flows. But if you are within yourself, then even the life flowing by, it’s a beautiful thing happening, just happening.
But this residing in the Self, in Consciousness, in Awareness, is so direct and so alive and so immediate, that everything gets penetrated so intensely, deeply, alivelessly. Aliveness is so intense, that every moment is like an eternity. Every moment is so here, so now, experienced fully, absolutely, every single little bit is so here! Even your idea about the future is so here. Even your regrets about the past are so here, so intensely, everything is here now. That is alive! And the closer you observe what is here, the more you see that it is so alive, everything, now, intensely, very much here, all of it.